GRIZZLY PEAR

written snapshots

Month: March 2022

  • A slightly tarnished mirror told him a different story.

    Dead bird (1919) by Julie de Graag (1877-1924). Original from The Rijksmuseum, via rawpixel.

    We went to the park yesterday. On the concrete bench was the twig like leg of a bird. I didn’t look for the rest of the body.

  • Upanishads, Vyasa (Vernon Katz, Thomas Egenes, trans.) 2015

    Last year, I listened to the library’s copy of the Upanishads during a 3-hour 10K hike in the hills behind our house.

    It may have been appropriate to experience this work as an audiobook because these were originally oral texts, but it was a slog. Unlike the Bhagavad Gita, the Upanishads are fourteen separate documents and it was difficult to keep attention without the structure of a story.

    Given their canonical status, it’s my fault for not properly appreciating this experience. Then again, maybe the translator shares some of the blame (I found the introduction to the book incredibly dry).

    Or possibly, these teachings should be sampled one line at a time, slowly pondered in a deliberate fashion.

    The audiobook format is great for lighter works that wash past the consciousness, often at 1.5x speed. Self-help books flitter into the consciousness to create an illusion of learning that will be forgotten in a month.

    The Upanishads are definitely not fluffy self-help fodder. These texts were orally transmitted from father to son. Something that required this much effort must have embodied deep value to survive the attrition of millennia.

    It was too much to digest in an endless stream, even at 1.0x speed.

    In all, I don’t regret the listen. But this was the barest of introductions. If I want to get anything substantive out of the Upanishads, I’ll have to sit down and read it slowly.


    But if the past year of inaction is any indication, I doubt will ever happen.

  • Iron and Bronze clashed as Jade reigned supreme.

    I stayed obsessed with the Max game board, so here is another version, with 1.5″ squares, which is a better fit for our pieces from Animal upon Animal.

  • Red and pink foot mittens were scattered in the corridor.

    I made a game board for Max to play with my Animal Upon Animal pieces. Originally it was hand drawn, then on legal paper in AutoCAD, and finally now in lettersized format. This is version 9. Lots of little tweaks here and there, but I’m happy with it.

    I’ve never been a great graphic designer, but a some time and many iterations makes me passable.

  • The grim giant hopped over the fluffy pink goat.

    Big Fish Eat Little Fish, a 1557 engraving by Pieter van der Heyden (from Pieter Bruegel’s 1556 drawing)

    Serpens ni edat serpentem, draco non fiet

    (A serpent, unless it devours a serpent, will not become a dragon)
    Adagia, Erasmus
  • The cool greys of dawn erupted into color when his eyes fluttered open.

  • a Dream of Cafe, March 2021

    Two years ago, our daughter went to school for the last time.

    It took a year after that before I dreamt about going out without guilt.

    Kind of.

    I still felt shame for hanging out at the coffee shop in the morning – because I suddenly realized that I missed an 8:00-8:30 meeting with a consultant.

    What kind of crazy person sets up a meeting at 8 in the morning!?

    (Aside from a contractor…but that kind of proves my point).

    I didn’t think about the COVID during the dream. I only thought of the pandemic when I woke up and realized that I didn’t dream about it.

    In the year since I still haven’t gone out much. We’ve been waiting for the kids to get their shots. Our daughter finally got her second shot, but kids under five are still waiting.

    Driving a car is an apt analogy. Compared to sitting around the house, it is a relatively dangerous activity, but it confers great benefits. We’re gonna wait another half year till our boy can get his own seatbelt.

    Then I’ll get my espresso.

    And totally blow off that 8 AM appointment.

  • He discovered the Valley of Mattresses.

    Between taxes and other obligations March will be “get real” month. My commentaries will most likely be much shorter or I may rely on random public domain photos to fill in the body here, but this one sentence experiment is worth at least two more weeks.

    Beyond that, who knows, but I’ll make sure to give this a proper passage if I decide to move on.

    Claddau Valley, Fiordland NP, NZ, Bernard Spragg, 4 Dec 2015
  • The presentation froze, but the clock kept ticking.

    And it didn’t effect the quality of the teaching.

    There must be a better way to do professional continuing education.