GRIZZLY PEAR

written snapshots

Category: Life

  • Twenty years ago

    I was a sophomore in college. I had completed my second studio and was embarking on a three semester detour into visual studies at the south wing of Wurster Hall, starting with ED101A with Tony Dubovsky.

    It feels like yesterday and a lifetime ago.

    I wonder what happened to that angsty kid who chain-smoked cigarettes, listened to loud music, and slept under the studio desk because it was less of a commute than going home.

    I’d like to think he’s still there, hiding under the respectable facade of a state worker, living in the burbs. Or maybe the suburban drone was the true kernel deep inside that bohemian two decades ago.

    Or maybe it’s both. Life is funny that way.

  • Culling the herd

    Every year or so, I end up going on a binge unsubscribing newsletters and facebook groups (I don’t use other social media platforms). 

    During these exercises, my favorites are never at risk and the spammy ones have no chance of surviving.  But the tough ones are those which always seemed interesting but don’t often get clicked.

    For those, I go through one or two copies of the newsletter and if there isn’t something that catches me, I unsubscribe. A decision is made on a whole body of work based on one or two samples.

    Fortunately nothing is permanent in the internet age, but it’s still a daunting thought.  You only get so many shots at someone’s attention and then it’s gone.

  • Home at the Supermarket

    During our last visit to Los Angeles, my son had fallen asleep in the car seat, but it was too hot to stay in the vehicle.  So we all went into the supermarket and I sat in the corner with the boy, while my wife, daughter, and mother in law shopped for dried goods you can’t find in Vegas.  When they came back, I went to the back of the store to use the restroom before commencing the long drive home.

    As I walked through the store, I was struck by how familiar the everything felt.  Admittedly, this Las Vegas is only a few hours from LA and we’re already full of California transplants.  But I don’t get this feeling at my neighborhood Smiths or Walmart.  I knew exactly how the bakery would look, and the produce section was stocked with everything I’d want.  The shelves were packed with goodies and I knew without looking that the far corner was stocked with live fish; the utterly decrepit restrooms were no surprise. I imagine these Asian supermarkets must feel as exotic to outsiders like when I visit one of the local Mexican markets that are quietly repurposing the older, smaller supermarket shells abandoned by the Kroger and Safeway in their quest for fancier, larger facilities.

    I grew up in the 80’s, but I was partially insulated from the homogeneity of popular culture because my dad didn’t let us have a TV nor go to movies.  However, living in the suburbs, we could not miss that the world around us was dominated by a different culture, especially since we did not go to a Chinese church.  Similarly, when we moved to San Jose, we did not end up in an Asian enclave.  While I did not learn the theoretical construct of “other” till grad school, we lived it throughout our childhoods.

    I remember the excitement when Ranch 99 opened up a supermarket in an old shell space near our part of town.  Martin Yan came for a packed demonstration during the grand opening celebrations.  Like any proper supermarket, it had a live fish section, but more importantly to my sister, dad, and me, it had a legit snack section.  The unique tangerines and lychees in the produce aisle were delightful and we could now conveniently get all the junk food we wanted without a half hour drive to Cupertino.  My dad quickly came up with a rule that we could each only pick out one item per visit, lest we eat ourselves to oblivion.

    During college, Ranch 99 opened up their own complex in the nearby suburb of Richmond.  I didn’t realize it then, but they were playing with this new typology in several locations.  Unlike a traditional strip center where all the stores faced the parking lot, this was a small indoor mall with the Ranch 99 supermarket as the anchor tenant surrounded by small shops and services.  Aside from the restaurants, I never patronized any of the small shops, but it quickly became part of my landscape.  I grew at home entering these little asian islands filled with tenants displaying familiar unreadable characters on their walls.

    After Katrina, Houston was threatened with an even more ferocious storm named Rita.  She veered north, so all we got was a windy night with scattered rains while hunkered down at the school.  The morning after, my buddy from Hong Kong and I decided to make a food run and invited some folks to come along.  One of our classmates questioned whether anything would be open, but we knew. The weather was gorgeous as we drove through the eerily quiet streets with empty sun drenched shopping centers.  As we neared the Chinatown strip, our instincts were proven correct at the first Chinese supermarket plaza, the parking lot was packed!  The shelves were barren, but they were open for business and we all had nothing better to do than to visit, shop, and eat.

    A few months ago, I was chatting with my coworker over lunch.  We veered off of sports and started talking about food and cooking.  I rattled off the names of the local Mexican chains, La Bonita, Marianas, Cardenas, and Marketon.  His eyes opened wide and he smiled. He’s a single guy who doesn’t cook, but we both knew that outside of visiting his house, or his mamma’s kitchen, I had come as close as one could to visiting his world.

    As my kids grow up in the bourgeois world of professionals in an suburban city, I’m certain they will be no strangers to the endless columns of unforgiving fluorescents at Walmart and the high blacked out ceilings at the Whole Foods.  They will know you need to get sodas and chips in bulk at Costco, and you can get some cheap tacos and agua frescas at La Bonita.  But I can’t help but think their home will end up being my home, filled with strange scripts, exotic fruits, cheap plastic stools, live fish, and lingering odor in the air.  It’s not just a place where we buy things we can’t get elsewhere, but also our most intimate space outside of our homes. The supermarket is our world is on full display for anyone who cares to visit.

  • A wider view of the world

    As an designer I’ve always been a bit of a lost soul. I have my opinions of course, and I enjoy visiting works in person, but I’ve never derived any great pleasure from looking at architecture in books or magazines.

    Instead, I’ve gotten my aesthetic kicks from novels, short stories, and comics. Akira and Sandman are my epic lodestars. Calvino and Borges are on my Mount Rushmore.

    Or even wider, I’d rather frail on the banjo or toot on the harmonica. And lately I’ve been geeking out on bread. I did have a two year run of playing into architect stereotype and being into photography, but that is countered by my lifelong affair with boardgames.

    I doubt such random interests have been good for my career, either professionally or academically, but I hope they have made me a more well rounded person.

    When I was in college, I used to assert that everything was worthy of study since everything feeds into architecture. I am no longer so bold to make such an assertion, but I still hold out hope that all the time chasing these random trails do feed back into the work. I’m not so sure how, but one can hope right?

  • 1929

    I just saw a meme that brought up the fact that Martin Luther King, Anne Frank, and Barbara Walters were all born in 1929.

    It boggles the mind how much the world has changed in the past 90 years. As the meme says, we feel these people are from different eras, but not really.

    Similarly, the Civil Rights era feels like forever ago, but not in context. Rosa Parks’ protest was in 1955, twenty four years before I was born. Twenty four years ago from today, I was a sophomore in high school.

    If taking the PSAT’s felt like yesterday, then the civil rights era only two and a half days ago!

  • Jumping ahead too fast?

    I’ve been reading and listening a lot to Seth Godin, the marketing guru / daily blogger. After all he’s the one who got me on this 3+ month blogging kick.

    However, I wonder if some of his thoughts are for higher level stuff while I’m still trying to get my own craft locked down. Between the new gig (which uses a lot of old skills but still feels fundamentally different), and the fact I still haven’t gotten the work / family / exercise practice down, there’s some fundamentals I need to work on.

    Even so, I think there’s a value to looking out past the horizon. I’ve always been a proponent of slow and steady growth in the profession, but also of constantly strategizing for the future.

    Maybe delusions of grandeur aren’t so bad, as long as you remember it’s for the future and you don’t assume it’s happening today, right now, right now.

  • An unintended benefit of blogging

    Yesterday evening, my boy did something cute and amusing. It tickled me so much I thought I’d write about it today.

    I woke up this morning and I can’t remember what on earth it was.

    But I still have the warm fuzzy feeling, amplified by the thought I’d share on the blog.

    So instead of sharing the instigating incident, I decided to share this warm fuzzy feeling instead.

    Have a good day!

  • parenting certaintudes

    I’ve noticed this odd dichotomy between how I write about work versus family.

    Now that I’ve achieved a certain level, I feel generally confident about knowing how to get a decent living in this profession.

    But with the kiddos, it’s all about unknowns and questions.

    Admittedly, work is much less dynamic than raising children. There’s only three key variables for work – compensation (money), effort (hours), and experience (projects).

    Then again, maybe it’s just a function of time, I’ve been playing at this architecture game for about twenty years now, and only in the kiddo game for about five.

    So there’s still a chance I’ll also start waddling around as a parenting know-it-all in fifteen years.

  • Simple not easy

    Exercise.

    Stretch.

    Walk a mile.

    Blog.

    Read a book.

    Quit social,

    And caffeine.

  • Banging away at the machine

    I had heard a rumor that each state employee has multiple licenses to install Microsoft Office on their home computers (beyond the web app). So last month, I took a moment to download the program, installed it, but ran into an activation problem. I still had access to the Office 365 webapp so I just forgot about it, until we were sent an email confirming the rumor.

    The key was knowing for certain that I had a legitimate rights to the program. I’m not an IT guy by any stretch of the imagination, but I can mash keyboards, and I’m not scared about nerfing our home laptop. I went back at it, messed around with some settings, deleted some stray items, and got it to work.

    Like kids in the 50’s grew up working on cars, I’m of the generation that grew up messing around with our PC’s, those 286’s and 386’s. There was a lot of time spent sitting in front of the computer inserting one floppy disk after another for a big installation. The computer is a black box, but not a scary one.

    Once in a while, all that time in front of the CRT is validated. I’m pretty sure it wasn’t the highest and best use of my time, but at least it wasn’t a complete loss.