Category: Life

I have been slipping back into the addictive algorithm lately.

I just realized the essential paradox of trying to quit Facebook. Ultimately I need to replace it with some other go to activity.

But part of the reason I’m quitting the network is because I want something less addictive. So by definition any replacement activity it with will be less addictive than the beast I am trying to quit.

And the beast just sits there biding it’s time.

Then again I did quit smoking….

I thought I’d just buy something real quick before heading out to work.  And then ran into random issues and half an hour I’m here writing a blog post.

It’s easy to get into the trap of just one more little thing…but how often does it actually work out that way?

There was a buy 2 get 1 free board game sale at Target last night so we rushed off to pick up a couple copies of Operation for our daughter and her friend and a treat for me.  Even though this deal ran for another week, Operation was further discounted “on sale thru monday” which made last night a little bit of a rush to figure out what other $14 item we should purchase.

I ended up picking up a copy of Kahuna, a now-old Kosmos 2P game. Its a title that I had seen over the years but I have never researched particularly thoroughly, but the price was right and the selection wasn’t great.

In the age of the internet and unlimited returns, it has been a while since I impulse purchased something that I doubt I will ever return, even if it comes up “meh”.  It was actually quite a thrill and I had a hard time falling asleep after our rush.

I can see how this gets addictive. Most likely not a good thing, though I assume the occasional indulgence isn’t the end of the world.

Trying to find an exercise program has been my white whale ever since I quit landscaping that first year after college.  I’ve never felt the runner’s high, just boredom while moving around.

I’m trying again to get back on the wagon.  Because the primary issue is my family’s hereditary high blood pressure, this time I am particularly focused on cardio.

Jump rope looks like it may be a promising approach.  It is incredibly taxing in a short amount of time and doesn’t require leaving the house, which is difficult to do with two kiddos in there.

Hopefully I will avoid injuring myself, I guess I should take a moment to google “jump roping downsides”.

Earlier this month, we went to a reading by the Poet Laureate Tracy K. Smith.  Aside from the moment when our boy decided to lose his mind right at the start (I think the audience applause startled him) and some lovely poems, she made two very interesting observations at the Q&A session at the end.  These lines are well rehearsed, but they were new to me.

1. She brought up the fact that we are bombarded with advertising.  By definition this type of language is manipulative, furthermore the algorithm of modern life means we are being spoon fed more and more effective versions of this language.  Her interesting twist is that she posits poetry confronts us with something real inside of us.  Her hope that tapping into this inherent common reality made explicit via poetry may be the salve for our fractured time.
2. She was asked how often a poem goes in a direction she doesn’t expect it go when she started.  She responded that if a poem doesn’t go sideways she is disappointed.  The process of developing the poem should startle the poet, creating new discoveries.

It made me realize how lecture series are lost on the young.  During my college days I was so overloaded with schoolwork and new ideas coming from so many directions, the last thing I could handle was an additional set of lectures outside of my studies.  It’s only now that living a more regimented life that I might be able to get something out of attending these things, even if I end up holding a grouchy baby watching the video capture in the foyer.

I have been lucky to generally avoid headaches.  However, I had a flu shot on Saturday and was completely waylaid on Sunday with a headache that alternated between mild to moderate.  It felt like the headache related to caffeine withdrawal, but towards my forehead instead of the crown.

For those who have to deal with regular headaches I’m certain I sound like a total wimp, but such is the curse of living a blessed existence.  Every glitch is magnified when it occurs, and a clear head is something I’ve taken for granted.  I remember a similar lousy day after last year’s flu shot, and once a year is plenty!

The title is more aspirational than real, especially over the past twenty minutes I just spent surfing my timeline (eek!).  However, it is also true that this past month of blogging has been primarily made possible by leaving Mr. Zuckerberg’s network for my little deserted island.  I’m not sure how things will play out over the long run, but it has been a good so far, enough to feel comfortable making a general recommendation that everyone should give daily blogging an extended try.

Since playing with the kids, eating, sleeping, and employment are all top priorities, there really isn’t much free time in my world.  Time is indeed a limited commodity!  So when I started this current run, I knew this was going to be a trade, and the only available activity was my morning devotional on social media.

At a conceptual level, the trade has been giving up the audience on an established network in order to engage with a medium that encourages longer form posts.  It’s not just the length, but the rigor that comes with writing self contained essays on an archived platform.  Facebook is great for sharing and consuming fun ephemeral content, but it is not a place for me to force myself to think.  I’m not so humble to say I’m satisfied with just shouting in the wind for myself, but for this little audience of 1 so far, it has been the right trade to take the time to talk to myself.

I was into podcasts before there was the internet.  We used to buy tapes of sermons and listen to them on little portable cassette players.  I’d listen to them while doing chores, walking around, or doing pretty much anything.  If it wasn’t sermons, it was talk radio, sports and politics, and the occasional audiobook.  In any case, there was always noise going on.  So for me, the transition to podcasts was beyond easy, it was natural.

While I’ve read all those articles and books that claims you can’t multitask, I think they ignore the fact that many times a task won’t require your full brain power.  And during those times, I find myself getting extremely anxious if I don’t have an audio distraction to keep me from being distracted by all the other self-chatter in my noggin.

Maybe it’s because of the kids, or because I’m moving into lower middle management, but all the sudden I’ve found myself enjoying silence.  I still want noise during long stretches in brainless tasks (such as my commute), but I have surprised myself at times with how little chatter I’m throwing in my ears.  Don’t get me wrong, I still listen to plenty of podcasts, but given how much I used to listen, it’s quite a sudden drop.

Twenty years ago, my first boss (who was most likely younger at the time than I am now) warned me this would be coming at some point.  He was right.  Silence does have a way of suddenly catching up to you. Even me.

After listening more to the Cortex Podcast, I’ve been playing with Toggl, the time tracking website.  I’ve been flailing around with it and have given up being able to really gather any data from it this week, but I’d like to get Toggl set up so I enter the weekend with a good system in place.  As such, I’ve been thinking quite a bit about how I want to track my time.

Deciding whether something is worth tracking is to make a judgement of its value.  Making value judgements means designing. But design is done in a bounded space.  While your life is technically a limited space, it’s a big sprawling thing to keep track off.

Toggle provides three levels of categorization.  So the first thing I did was split Work versus Home.

The second level is called Projects.  Work was pretty straightforward, I just split out all the projects.  In order to track activities (meetings, emails, etc) I’ll need to start adding tags. Life at home is a little more complicated.  Ideally it would be sliced into Good, Chores, and Wasted.  But that’s a bit too blunt of an instrument, so right now I have it split up between a few pet projects, eat, sleep, drive, chores, and a generic life in general section.

The third level are the Tasks within each projects. For the last couple days I had been trying to keep a tight eye on this, but I’ve decided to just let it sprawl for a bit and then before reining it in, after I feel like I have a handle on things.

I know my wife is rolling her eyes at this ridiculously nerdy timewasting exercise (especially so soon after my shortcuts exercise), but dude it’s totally gonna be worth it!