GRIZZLY PEAR

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Category: Notes

  • Mottainai: Wutai Mountain Expansion, Carl Chudyk, 2018

    A few months ago, I earned the the dubious honor of having the most recorded plays of Mottainai and its expansion Wutai Mountain. Maybe I will write a proper review of this expansion one day, but its been a while so I decided to publish the jumbled notes I sketched out after this great accomplishment.


    If Mottainai is a knife fight, then Wutai Mountain is a bruising boxing match. This expansion is a bit swingier. The OM cards drain your hand which takes time to refill. If you play (and fill up) a powerful OM card, the final beatdown could be foreshadowed several turns before the inevitable. Such advance signaling is not as common in the base game.

    The game with the expansion is considerably heavier than the original. Jumping from 3 to 4 (on the five point complexity scale on boardgamegeek) feels accurate. The expanded game is less heavy than Pax Porfiriana, but it now fits comfortably within the category of ridiculously heavy card game in a really small box.

    I have to admit that plays 10 thru 25 were a bit of a slog. The extra heaviness got wearying after the initial novelty of the OM cards faded out. I almost stopped playing the expansion, but I hit a second wind where everything clicked and I burst through a wild run of plays over a single weekend. The OM mechanism is still ponderous, but my mind now groks its intricacies. It helped that I realized that one can win a Wutai game without ever completing an OM work (maybe up to a third of such games).

    My personal boardgamegeek rating for this game has followed this trajectory, I started with an 8, dropped it to a 6, and have settled at a 7. I’m not sure if the expansion improves the base game, but it is a solid alternate game that uses Mottainai cards. This is not a must-have, and I would recommend playing the original fifty times before trying this out. Now that I’m standing on top of both play count lists at boardgamegeek, I’m not sure whether I would choose play the base game or the expansion more regularly.


    When I was shopping for a car after college, I decided to get an old Datsun sports car. I eventually settled on a 1981 280zx 2+2 with a back seat. Since I didn’t drink, the backseat got quite a bit of use since I was often the designated driver. Before I made that final purchase, I tried out an early model 240z, which felt like a completely different vehicle. I occasionally wonder if I made a mistake getting the Fat Elvis version, even though the back seat gave me the opportunity to transport four friends to Sacramento to watch Melt Banana.

    Unlike the 280zx, my experience with Wutai Mountain was unfortunately all by myself, playing against myself. Even if I don’t play it more, this expansion be inextricably tied to memories 2020, navigating the lonely vagaries of this drawn out pandemic.


    The night after, I played both versions, twice.

    It was relaxing to return to the base game. There are fewer unknowns to ponder in the base game without the OM deck. The patterns in a hand are much easier to analyze at a glance with the base game.

    If someone wants an experience with wild variety, I see why they might prefer Wutai. After all, this is the point of the expansion. However, I’m not sure that’s what I want out of a cardgame.

    Fortunately both decks fit in the box, so they are both always available.


    A couple nights later, I had another opportunity to play the base game and the expansion in quick succession.

    I think my earlier analogy is correct. To take it to extremes, the base game is like getting on a Kawasaki to race around an oval track. Adding Wutai Mountain turns it into a meandering stroll through the woods.

    Wutai constipates your hand in two ways – you need to have cards in hand to fill up an OM card when you initially play that card. And then having emptied your hand to stock up the OM card, you need to fill your hand back up. It’s not a bad dynamic, but it is a fundamental change from the base game.


    A few days later.

    I’d say the appropriate aphorism is “more is more, but not necessarily better (or worse)”.

    After two hundred plays, maybe I’ll come to consider Wutai as mean and nasty as the base game. However, currently Wutai has a expansive meandering quality that is enjoyable in its own way.


    I hit 250 plays for Mottainai and 50 for Wutai.

    My final verdict is that is that Wutai does some cute things, but if I wanted to slow down Mottainai, I’d just play Innovation.

    Mottanai is fast and viscous. That’s the raison d’etre of this game. I’ll keep Wutai in the box for easy variety, but it generally isn’t worth the loss of quickness and lightness. (I should reread the Italo Calvino’s first two essays in Six Memos for the Next Millennium).

    The thrill of Mottanai is derived from the suddenness of the game end, which often comes as a thief in the night. One misstep can set up the sudden victory for your opponent. Delightful surprises reveal themselves. Swift game endings do not happen regularly in the expansion. Furthermore, the base game commonly scores as a tie, with the tiebreaker being whoever ended the game. This dynamic makes it important to be the person who ends the game, and it is often worth the risk the game prematurely even if you don’t have a guaranteed victory. Wutai’s final scores are generally lopsided which eliminates this delicious dynamic.

    In any case, I suspect Wutai will end up like Nefarious, a game with a ton of plays in one year and not many after. Mottanai will remain a classic.


    I haven’t played this game in the past few months. The I Ching and reading books in general has taken up all my free time when I’m not playing with the kids. Mottainai is great, but not as fun as plumbing the craggy depths of my brain.

  • Bed of Procrustes, Nassim Nicholas Taleb, 2010, 2015

    A few years ago, I borrowed this book from the library only to read a couple pages before returning it. Fortunately, the occasional recommendations of Taleb at rvltr reminded me to pick this book up again.

    This time around, I got the audio book and by the time I had reached the place where I had been previously dropped off, I realized this was an absolutely brilliant little book.

    What changed?

    It wasn’t the format. This book is best as a physical hardcopy, as an object lying around the house to be randomly accessed, to be pondered a couple lines at a time. An audio book is actually the perfectly wrong format for this book.

    So what changed? How did I see brilliance after missing it in its best light? Well, my brain is has changed. In the past year, I finally kicked my Facebook addiction and minimized my use of Boardgamegeek. I’ve always had good boundaries around Twitter and Linkedin, but I’ve strangled my use of those services as well. Thank god I never got sucked into Instagram or Tiktok.

    Getting control over these digital vices has not only freed up precious free time, it has made a big difference in how my mind processes the world around me.

    Can you imagine it? I wasn’t mentally concentrated enough to read a short book of pithy proverbs! We are going to look back at the early 21st century as a dark age of constant distraction from the computers in our pockets.

    My twenties had cigarettes, my thirties had social media. At the moment, I regret the latter more than the former. Let’s hope this decade doesn’t come with its own a regrettable addiction.

    The difference between technology and slavery is that slaves are fully aware that they are not free

    Taleb

    Back to the book for a moment. It’s fucking brilliant. Not every aphorism will be applicable to you, but when it hits, the punch packs a wallop. I read and listened (at 1.0x speed) to each copy separately, basically reading it twice in quick succession. I did not notice a major difference between the original audiobook and the expanded ebook. Both are fine but neither are ideal formats for full appreciation of this book. I suspect that I will eventually purchase a hardcopy, since it was designed for manual serendipity. However, it is also fair to note that I don’t love it enough to make a stand against my wife’s current campaign against new book physical purchases.


    Three months later. Even though I still haven’t purchased a copy, I suspect that this will be my most influential book of the year. It was nice that it spurred me to listen to Anti-Fragile, but more importantly it ignited my recent push towards reading ancient wisdom literature, such as the Havamal, I Ching, Bhagavad Gita, Analects, etc.

    One of Taleb’s aphorisms starts “Read no book less than 100 years old…”, It seems that I’ve multiplied that advice by ten or twenty. I wonder how long this personal trend will last.

  • The Mind, Wolfgang Warsch, 2018

    With the interminable confinement due to the pandemic, I indulged a fair bit for Christmas. Of the games “I gave” my kids, this one as certainly the highlight.

    It is not a children’s game per se, but our six year old daughter picked it up immediately, same with my mother in law.

    And also my wife, who exclaimed it was the dumbest game that I’d ever inflicted on her when I explained the rules to her.

    We take our cards and play them out to a shared pile in the middle, in numerical order. No talking.

    The beauty of The Mind is that it recreates the sensation of dread and anticipation you feel during an opponent’s final turn right at the end of a tight game – for the entire bleeping game!

    I never conceptualized that it was possible for a game could create and maintain this tension. Certainly not a game with such a simple elegant ruleset. Of course, it is most likely works only because it is so simple.

    Ultimately, I suspect this game will end up in Hanabi territory – taking numbered cards and simply doing something simultaneously absurd and sublime with it.


    In the months after writing this note, I have consistently brought it to the in-laws house during our weekly visits, and we have consistently not played it. Then again we haven’t played many games lately at their house. At home, my I Ching obsession has eliminated my entreaties to my wife to play games with me. So the high opinion of the design still stands, but it’s not getting nearly as much love as I would have expected.

  • Comic Relief and Rory Root

    I was a freshman living on the north side of campus. The shop was on the west side.

    It was a rough year in the dorm. I escaped by hiding in bookstores and read the entire Sandman series in his shop.

    Comic Relief had a simple rule. Read what you want but don’t sit down.

    Beyond that, they were really totally chill. I went through the Blade of the Immortal series in that shop as well.

    I was a poor student, so I read a lot but only bought the occasional comic, but they were cool about it.

    Hopefully I repaid their hospitality with many purchases after I graduated and got a job.

    The other night, I thought about Rory, a big guy with long stringy blond hair and a big black wrist stiffener. A jovial presence in his kingdom. I remember hanging out with him a few times as he smoked a couple cigarettes outside on University Avenue. I still think about his warnings about acid free tape (there adhesive was acid free, but the tape membrane wasn’t).

    He was a gracious host. After all my free loading during the college years, I willingly bought much of what he recommended to me. There are plenty of obscure graphic novels on my shelves from his store.

    I also fondly remember the time when I picked up Frank Miller’s Yellow Bastard from his Sin City series. A couple days later I returned it. I was a bit embarrassed, but that book was just too dark. A great novel, but I couldn’t have it in my house.

    No judgment. No big deal.

    He moved his shop to a bigger place right before I moved out to Texas. A few years later he passed away. The shop is now gone.

    But the memory of Comic Relief still lives fresh in my mind’s eye. It was an institution, for a moment. Thankfully I was there for it.


    These small institutions that enrich our lives are always but fleeting. This haunting reality is a bit of a downer, so I just try to be grateful in the moment. And when they’re gone, I remind myself that it was a boon to be at the right place at the right time.

  • American Photographs, Walker Evans, 1938

    The first half of the book is an exercise of being seen. Walker Evans pushes his subjects to look into the camera. The subject directly looks at the observer, drawing you into their American experience. The distance of eight decades is inescapable, but it is also impossible to miss universality of our humanity.

    The second half of the book is a crisply focused, a clinical series of distant townscapes and cityscapes. Every photograph is empty of humanity aside from our built structures.

    Upon reflection Walker Evan’s stance becomes clear. America is both her people and its context.

    But it isn’t clear what came first. Maybe it’s an irrelevant question. We shape our environment, and it shapes us. We are its residue as we leave our mark.


    This book is rightly a classic, the craft is taut and the voice is clear. The only sour note is the turgid essay at the end of the book, so just skip the afterword. I have no regrets buying this book, primarily because the local library didn’t have its own copy (a damn shame). Even so, of the making of books there is no end, and I haven’t been back to this one over the past couple months.

  • The Practice, Seth Godin, 2020

    There is a downside to listening to a ton of Seth Godin interviews – this book was thoroughly trod before I got my turn to borrow the audiobook from Overdrive.

    The basic conceit of the Practice is reasonable. Our job is to do the work, but the outcome lies in the hands of the gods….so goddammit go execute your process.

    I found it intriguing that Seth structured the book as a numeric series of essays (ending in the 220’s), but I don’t grok what he was trying to get out of such a structure. Maybe I should borrow the ebook to look for the payoff of such a framework, but it is telling I haven’t bothered to do so in the two months since I wrote the first draft of this post.

    I’m coming to think that The Dip, with a simple counterintuitive concept written in a brutally concise format, will be Seth’s book that lasts longest in the mind’s eye. Linchpin, Seth’s self acknowledged masterwork, was also great, but I have to admit that it already has a dated aura to it.

    In the end, I like the basic premise of The Practice, but I must wonder if it was longer than necessary to drive the point home. I’ll give Seth the benefit of the doubt, but even if the final product is “not bad” did it reach greatness? I guess asking the question is the answer. Seth’s batting average is incredibly high, but not every work can be a masterpiece.


    The one concept from the book that has stayed with me over the past few months is Seth’s distinction between “instigating change” versus an “artful hobby”. He believes both routes are viable paths for an endeavor, even though he openly focuses on the former. It’s a stark decision and I’ve become increasingly comfortable with the fact that this is an “artful hobby”, following the model of Scripting.com instead of Seths.blog.

  • Programming Idea: Real-time Reality-based Ratings

    The test of whether you really liked a book is if you reread it (and how many times)…the rest is spin….

    Nassim Nicholas Taleb, The Bed of Procrustes

    To pat myself on my back, I’ve been pretty happy with the rhythm this blog has hit over the past few months. I have also been happy with my “reviews”, even though they bounce around all over the place. However, I’ve had a nagging feeling that I ought to provide a minimal modicum of direct commentary on the these objects that springboard my ramblings.

    After years of reading reviews on Boardgamegeek and elsewhere, I believe that numerical rating systems are universally overwrought and contrived. After reading Taleb’s aphorism, I’ve been trying to end my notes with a blunt factual comment about what I did with the work during and after consumption.

    Aside from immediately rereading a book, I can think of no higher complement for BJ Fogg’s Tiny Habit than to say I ran off and bought my own physical copy. However, it’s been three months since the book arrived, and I haven’t cracked it open.

    Conversely, one must wonder how much I actually liked George Valliant’s Aging Well, since I immediately returned it to the library after completing my notes on that book. Then again, I’ve mentioned some of his key concepts in recent conversations.


    I’ve been slipping in such comments in recent reviews, but I’ve decided to force this feature by adding a postscript at the end of each of my “notes” for the months of May and June. Who knows after that. As always this blog is a work in progress, thanks for joining along for the ride.

  • Memorizing the I Ching Sequence

    Over the past month, I surpassed my expectations with the I Ching by memorizing the non-intuitive “King Wen” sequence of 64 hexagrams, as well as their English and Chinese names.

    The two critical tools for this exercise were my flashcards on Quizlet and on Pleco. (Quizlet is a free website and app. Pleco is a free Chinese dictionary app, but I paid extra for its flashcard functionality years ago.)

    It was unfortunate that Pleco’s flashcards could not render the hexagram unicode characters properly, however this limitation turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Quizlet was great for learning the hexagrams. Switching over to Pleco without the benefit of seeing the hexagram image on the screen almost felt like starting over, but the extra mental effort locked in my memorization. Soon after moving to Pleco, I started visualizing the hexagram sequence in my head, which I suspect was a nice side effect of this difficult limitation. And of course, Pleco was indispensable for learning the Chinese characters for the titles.

    The path I took in learning the sequence was unorthodox. I started by pulling a few hexagrams that had been thrown in recent sessions. I realized that a purely random approach was unworkable so I pulled out all the hexagrams with Thunder below and with Lake above. (I chose these two trigrams because they were most analogous to my old rabbits Badger and Peppercorn.) Then I started to get systematic. The obvious first choice should have been simple doubled up trigrams, so I added them into the mix.

    At that point, I had about thirty hexagrams memorized. I completed the remainder by filling in the gaps in the sequence, starting from the beginning. It was slow going for a bit, but the memorization quickly coalesced at the end. For this last step, it was nice to have previously memorized milestones scattered along the entire sequence. It created a path where the mind could while rest when reciting the sequence in order.

    After memorizing the sequence with English titles and Chinese pronunciations, I decided to learn the written Chinese characters. This last step only took a week. I don’t know much written Chinese, but I suspect my multitude of attempts over the years really greased the skids for the process.

    All in all, it worked. Since the process went faster than expected, I don’t know if there is much value in trying to optimize the process. Just do it.

    This was a good exercise in memorization with the help of modern digital tools. These flashcard programs didn’t make the effort easy, but they certainly made the process less difficult. Whenever I had a short break (or spent an hour in line to get a vaccine shot) I’d pull out the phone and work out my brain.

    The benefits from this effort were immediately noticeable, even before I had memorized much of sequence. I use the slow yarrow stalk method for building the hexagrams, so I have plenty of time to mull the possible results during the process. Knowing the sequence by heart has enriched the divination process since I delight in pondering the forking paths before the final answer reveals itself.

    Outside of the benefits to the I Ching practice, it was good to just go through a pure exercise of raw brute force memorization. The value of memorization diminished considerably in this age of the ubiquitous internet. However, this skill should not be completely discarded, and there is value in practicing focused concentration. The sense of accomplishment felt great, and since the process didn’t take nearly as long as I feared, I will be more willing to deploy this mental tool as the need arises. After all, I was willing to embark on this exercise partly because of the distant memory of learning koine Greek when I was a devout Christian, a quarter century years ago.

    And heck, even if I move onto another obsession in a few months, I now have an interesting sequence for counting sheep, to help me fall back asleep if I wake up too early in the morning.

  • From Sea to Shining Sea, Hiroji Kubota, 1992

    I picked up the book soon after I finally purchased Robert Frank’s The Americans and Walker Evan’s American Photographs. Amazon’s algorithm saw a trend and kept placing this book in front of me until I caved.

    Fortunately, the algorithm did right. I fully enjoyed this snapshot of America in the early 90’s.

    Kubota is the most sincere photographer I’ve read. He keeps a respectful distance from his subject, presents them without comment, avoids personal flourishes, and maintains the fourth wall between the photograph and the reader.

    I was intrigued by his ability to seem so anonymous within his work. Like the dog who didn’t bark, it takes a while before you notice the fact he worked so carefully to stay out of the frame. His only stylistic device is a tendency to go high, whether a step ladder or on a blimp. Even then, this was noticed largely because he admits to it in the introduction.

    At a contextual level, it was also interesting to note how many of these three decade old photos would be considered subpar in today’s world. The aerial night shots of Vegas are completely blurred, something you’d expect of a frame capture from a youtube video. Such aerial shots were possibly magnificent in their time, but such technical and logistical feats have lost their punch in an era where my contractor is producing a weekly high definition drone video of my construction site.

    Even so, Kubota’s photographs still hold up on the ground and in the crowd. Maybe the reason they’ve stayed fresh because my nostalgia of these years when America was on the ascendency after the fall of the Soviets.

    However, I’d like to think they hold up artistically because he scrupulously avoided forcing a stylistic signature in his work. Asian Americans are often frustrated by our invisibility within larger society. In this case, Kubota used it to his great advantage.

    This assessment might be an idiosyncratic preference – Kubota’s out of print books are not overpriced in the secondary market. Even so, I can think of no higher compliment than to mention that I’ve purchased two more of his books, China and Out of the East, this time without the insistent prompting of the algorithm.

  • Batteries in a Bird

    We have a toy bird. Talk to it while pressing a button and it repeats what you said, a couple pitches higher.

    Unfortunately, the kids leave the darn thing on all day and we’re constantly changing its batteries.

    Our boy thinks that is part of the fun. He loves to pull out the screw driver and pop the two batteries into the bird. He knows which one should be pointing positive up and that the other positive goes down.

    Yesterday, he decided to put them both in, positive up. Then both positive down.

    He looked at me with a glimmer in his eye. He found it hilarious and laughed and laughed.

    Finally he put them in correctly, still chuckling at this hilarious joke.