GRIZZLY PEAR

written snapshots

Category: Notes

  • ± 100 Posts!

    a novice reads the I Ching

    How shall I consider 100 Posts?

    63:3 to 3

    Heading into our third weekend together, this will be my 100th post. (Technically I hit it earlier, but I deleted a few stray Posts along the way.)

    I pick up — and drop — hobbies with alacrity. I wish I weren’t so fickle, but I’m not the only one. There are many conflicting pulls on our time. Doing one means diminishing another, so I cycle through my recreations.

    Over the past two decade, we’ve seen social media platforms rise and fall. Glittering potential dissolving into pernicious squabbling. A brilliant dawn fades into tragedy.

    Will this be an apex or a milestone? I don’t know. If it’s near the top, then early gratitude for these magical 16 days. If the latter, then I look forward to many more Posts together.

    ~

    63. After Completion 既濟
    (water over fire)

    Success in small matters. Good fortune in at the beginning. But things might end in chaos. Equilibrium on a knife’s edge, calamitous disorder on both sides. Water over fire, steam gives power but fraught with danger. With the wrong attitude completion leads to decay. Practice constancy.

    Changing Line 3
    (yang becomes yin)

    Conquer demon territory. Establish a bastion in the borderlands. It will take capable leadership and persistence. Three years. A bold initiative will become a protracted campaign. Employ people of character. The work will exact a brutal toll. A petty man will lose it all.

    3. Difficulty at the Beginning 屯
    (water over quake)

    Life grows through the abyss. Great potential is attainable with good character. Be adaptable and dynamic, as clouds and thunder. Birth is a treacherous moment. Associate with noble people.

    ~

    Good start, don’t get cocky.
    Victory is attainable at great cost.
    Shape order from chaos with good company.

  • Stephen Brian, 2022

    He was one of the first folks to play with us,
    On our first visit to Friday Night Game Night,
    (Jim and Troung’s place.)

    He was a little geeky — me too!
    (Two dudes playing board games every week)
    I best remember his aura of kindness.

    My days in Houston ended in 2013,
    Never got around to that 3P game of Konig von Siam.
    (He liked heavier games, I’m into lighter games.)

    Just found out he passed away this year.

    We’ll get that play one day,
    (Between rounds of of Tichu)
    On that next plane.

    ䷤䷂

    sincerity
    arrayed like a king
    good fortune in the end

  • Catwings, Ursula K. Le Guin and S. D. Schindler, 1988-1999

    A four book series around the theme of family.

    • The four are forged into a family, escaping the city and finding a new home.
    • Jane is rescued, growing the family.
    • Alexander leaves his family and finds a new home.
    • Jane leaves the woods and finds Mom again.

    This theme is tuned perfectly with its audience.
    At this age, the kids are realizing their individuality beyond us.
    This family isn’t forever.

    They will soon explore the outside world,
    It won’t be easy —
    Dangers lurk, both harsh and soft.

    And there are rewards,
    To find new friends,
    Together create their own new worlds.

    At home, the parents prescribe the horizon.
    Soon (too soon!) they’ll fly away.
    And one day,
    Hopefully,
    They’ll come home.

    ~

    I came across this series via Le Guin’s No Time to Spare, an excellent collection of blog postings. This highlights my egregious oversight in never reading her before. Hopefully 2023 will be the year to dive into her work.

    S. D. Schindler’s illustrations are delightful. It’s a shame that Overdrive only hosts the Catwing audiobooks. Hopefully they’ll get the digital rights in order so they can distribute the written books.

    Thankfully, our library has copies of the physical books.

  • How shall we consider the election today?

    novice reads the I Ching

    19:1,3 to 46

    In reading classic texts, one should be wary of the context. These are invariably Imperial documents. They were written by men in power to influence men with even more power. Literacy was an ultimate privilege.

    Reading them is a balancing act. Books that survived the ages must have provided great value to their readers. But we shouldn’t uncritically marinate in their archaic values.

    Then again, questioning paradigms is the point of divination. This is a tool to help us surface our self-imposed unconsciousness.

    So let’s ask the oracle of ancient kings concerning this day of democracy.

    ~

    19. The Approach 臨
    ䷒ (earth above a lake)
    Success approaches by obtaining the trust of others. Be boundless in teaching. Lead by patient persuasion. Share the truth. But growth may be short-lived, calamity might be around the corner.

    Changing Line 3
    Complacency in the approach will result in stagnation. However, doom is not predestined. Remorse against comfort and vigilance against ignorance will protect from harm.

    46. Pushing Upward 升
    ䷭ (earth above the wood)
    Like a tree pushes upward through the earth, greatness will rise. Rooted in good character and heaping small efforts. This accumulation can climb high. Practice devotion to continual progress.

    ~

    Success is near, so is calamity.
    Don’t get comfortable, continual refinement.
    The constant pressure of little victories leads to great progress.

  • Jazz Roundup, November 2022

    Hoopla lets us borrow a certain amount of titles per month, and I used up my last few credits in October to try a variety of albums. Keith Jarrett’s Koln Concert blew me away. A commenter on a youtube video called it “the sound of God”.

    Thelonious Monk with John Coltrane — two immortals. Even if Jarrett is my artist of the month John Coltrane is the “voice of God”.

    Clifford Brown and Max Roach — another pairing of greats. Delilah is an awesome opening track.

    Know what I Mean? — Cannonball Adderley with Bill Evans, I prefer the slow rendition of Waltz for Debby in its original incarnation.

    The Complete Village Vanguard Recordings — I get the appeal of hearing everything, but give me the curated experience of an album. Maybe I’ll dig this after I become a real jazzbo.

    Unity — I’d buy the album for the cover, but the organ doesn’t do it for me.

    Paper Moon — Another great album cover, but Brubeck feels uninspired. It must be endlessly frustrating for musicians to pour their souls into an album only to be so casually dismissed.

    Song for My Father — Horace Silver was the only (non-christmas) artist to cut through the dominance of Jarrett. This album swings.

    Koln Concert — as noted in the intro, this overwhelmed everything else this month. It’s the most sold solo jazz album of all time for good reason.
    Concerts Bremen / Lausanne — His first solo piano concert album. Very good, including Rick Beato’s “Most Beautiful Two Minutes in Music“.
    Koln Concert — I borrowed it twice.
    Facing You — His first solo piano (studio) album. Very good.
    Paris Concert — It starts on a classical note and stays in that tone while being jazz. Remarkable. Not as accessible as Koln Concert but I’m intrigued.

    With the passage of Thanksgiving, and the advent of the holidays, my spare Hoopla credits in November were spent on holiday albums. Here is all the Christmas cheer you can handle — the kids insist.

    A Charlie Brown Christmas — Last year, it started our jazz kick. This month I’ve found two great companions with Ella Fitzgerald Bobby Timmons.

    Ella Wishes You a Swinging Christmas — I’m not a connoisseur of vocal music. This needs to change in 2023. She’s amazing.

    Holiday Soul — Bobby Timmons plays just enough Christmas to make this a holiday album, but I could play this all year. Per the title, it’s got soul.

    A Dave Brubeck Christmas — Solo piano. Unremarkable.

    The Original: Gene Autry Sings Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer & Other Christmas Favorites — Fun album, starts with popular songs on side A and carols on side B.

    White Christmas — Bing Crosby takes the opposite tack and serves the veggies first.

    The Christmas Song — Nat King Cole sings traditional Christmas songs. I love his voice, my kids want cheery pop. In the war against Christmas they are partisans for the “Holidays”.

    James Brown’s Funky Christmas — Definitely James Brown, need to listen to it again.

    Elvis’s Christmas Album — Our kids’ introduction to Elvis.

    A Motown Christmas — With my jazz kick, I’ve lost interest in compilations. I prefer to hear a unified voice in an album.

    A Christmas Gift for you From Phil Spector — hard to enjoy this album with the spectre of its namesake.

    Christmas with Sinatra and Friends — Sinatra is great but it feels disjointed as a compilation after the grave.

    We’ll see which albums have staying power for repeated plays into Christmas after this initial survey.

    from the deep
    peace on earth
    good will to men

  • Raya and the Last Dragon, Hall, Estrada, Briggs, 2021

    We didn’t get this growing up.
    Asians on the big screen, speaking English!
    Real characters, not ridiculous caricatures.

    Awesome!

    Unfortunately, the movie is just ok.
    The animations are gorgeous — the tropics are luscious and OMG the water!

    But the rest of it…
    The story is ponderous (might have been better as a TV show.)
    The dialog was a better than Shang Chi, but the plot is stale.
    The ending is saccharine.

    I’m spoiled, expecting too much from a Disney princess film.

    Or maybe it’s a good sign, that we now expect for better than mediocre from a Hollywood film featuring people who look like us.

  • Creativity a Short and Cheerful Guide, John Cleese, 2020

    Exactly as advertised.

    Chapter One: Do the work (and give the subconscious room to do its work).

    Chapter Two: Don’t rush into a hasty decision (get comfortable in the discomfort of creation). Play with the problem (create space to avoid distractions).

    An appendix of miscellany.

    That’s it.
    Short and cheerful.
    Brilliant in its brevity.

    As a connoisseur of self-help manuals, I proclaim Creativity a classic.
    (I immediately purchased my own copy — can I recommend it any higher?)

    ䷨䷕

    This was recommended in an conversation about bloated self help books. It was brought up as an antidote to Cal Newport’s Deep Work. They were right. Cleese is quick and light. A joy to read.

  • Post.news, 2022

    We’ve spent the past decade watching our hopes for social media fade into a dystopian hellscape.

    With lists, I had wrangled Twitter into being a decent source of information, but it remained an awful place for discussion.

    Then a man-child swooped in and to put it out of its misery. The chaos was entertaining for a couple of weeks before it got old. Relying upon the latest outrage for a dopamine addiction isn’t edifying entertainment.

    In this wake, @noam stepped into the void. It’s still in beta, the user base is still small, and my 24k new best buddies are still friendly.

    Maybe it will change for the worse. Or slide into irrelevance. Rational odds are for one or the other.

    But maybe not. For the first time in a while, social media comes with hope.

    Between the election results and Post.news, it’s been a good November. Here’s to many more.

    Happy Thanksgiving.

  • Man’s Search for Ultimate Meaning, Viktor E. Frankl, 1974

    If you’re a fan of Man’s Search for Meaning, then this book is a required sequel.

    You won’t dig it as much.
    It doesn’t have the power of the original.
    Nothing can match his narrative of life in concentration camps.

    That’s why this book is so important as a follow up.
    This book is technical theory.
    A polemic for Logotherapy and Existential Analysis.

    Boring is the point.
    If you buy his philosophy, then the belief should survive a much dryer accounting.

    On my end, I don’t know.
    I can’t knock it — anything that survives Auschwitz is worth consideration.
    It’s certainly truthy.
    But is it true?

    I’ll leave that to professional psychologists and philosophers.

    I appreciate that Frankl drew a distinction between theology and psychiatry.
    In our soup of competing totalizing theories, I respect someone who is humble enough to prescribe limits around his own discipline.

  • Music, generally

    I grew up in a strictly classical house, but I ended up enjoying an extremely wide variety of music, everything from death metal, to tejano. My tastes run a mile wide and a millimeter deep.

    Out of this sea of noise, I do find myself regularly returning to celtic instrumentals, bluegrass, and Bach’s Goldberg Variations. Though I’ve gotten onto a jazz kick lately.

    Unfortunately, I never sit down to listen to music. Music is utilitarian noise while I do other stuff, Music has been relegated to third place after audiobooks / podcasts (for brainless chores and commutes) or silence (for focused attention).

    Music is for the middle tasks needs a non-distracting background noise to keep my brain from becoming anxious when the work is progressing slowly. Music can lull a mind that is spinning faster than the hand can fly.

    Traditionally, the lullaby has been Electronic Dance Music with driving beat and a simple melody. I’m slightly embarrassed by how much EDM I’ve consumed on youtube, but I’m also perversely proud of this odd quirk, like my occasional interest in the Eurovision song contest.

    I’ve always been too cheap to pay for concert experiences so my musical life has been 99.5% experienced over recorded media. I grok the appeal of the live experience, but for $16 I can get a plastic disc that can replay that sound sequence in perpetuity. It’s a classic 80/20 problem, especially now that it is all free on the interwebs

    In theory I want to learn how to properly appreciate music properly, but what should I delete from my schedule to make room for analyzing different versions of the Goldberg Variations or jazz standards?

    Even if I found time for music appreciation, I’d rather practice a musical instrument to some level of proficiency. Much like my musical tastes, I have a wide variety of instruments that I play at an exceedingly beginner level.

    I played piano for a very short period as a child. I lasted just long enough to learn the elementary basics of reading musical notation.

    In elementary school, I learned the recorder like every other kid. I still have the beige Yamaha recorder from 3rd grade in Mr. Edwards class.

    I played trombone in high school with a disastrous stint as a freshman in the UC Berkeley marching band. Music is too ephemeral for my materialist inclinations. I need a tangible deliverable. When I started architectural studios in the spring semester that year, I found my tribe.

    For quite a while I didn’t play any music, but after finishing undergrad I road tripped through the Southwest. In Albuquerque I met a guy from Alaska who spent the long winters playing the banjo. He pulled it out for a magical night, noodling on the front stoop of the hostel.

    (This was before we all had the internet in our pockets. I wonder if we’ve lost a generation over the last couple decades.)

    After the trip I got my own banjo, but never got any good at it. Just like all the other instruments I didn’t practice diligently. I had a short revival of playing the banjo during grad school, but hit a plateau and stopped.

    A couple years after grad school, I got into blues harmonica for a few months, playing it during lunch in the empty park next to my office (no one is outside during the Houston summer). I got good enough to bend notes, but stalled out and lost interest. I’m still quite fond of the harmonica – where else can you get a professional level instrument for $45?

    About seven years ago, I borrowed my parent’s ukulele which taught me the concept of chords. Playing childrens songs felt like a reasonable goal. I got far enough to buy my own ukulele (a plastic model that is virtually indestructible), but then I came across a book on clawhammer banjo at the library and went back to my old fellow.

    With the clawhammer style, I got good enough to play about five or six songs on the banjo but stopped. (For a while I kept it the corner of the playroom, so I could frail on a whim, but the boy broke with the fifth string a year ago and I haven’t fixed it.)

    Finally, when the boy was born, I suddenly got entranced by the idea of percussion. I first picked up a djembe (what gorgeous bass!), but settled on a darbuka because I enjoyed the asymmetrical position. But again a lack of dedication meant I never internalized any of the standard rhythms. Maybe I can blame COVID because I stopped going to drum circles and haven’t returned.

    I’d like to pick up a cajon to get some snares, but given my two week dalliance with the native american flute last summer (the girl hated the sound), I’m well it would be a frivolous purchase.

    If I was to buckle down and focus, I would think the banjo would be my primary instrument, but who knows when I will prioritize doing musical practice.

    I enjoy my music to be sure. Just not enough to be expert at any level.

    Maybe one day.